Mom talk:
I was going through some drawers the other day looking at old photos of the kids and I ran across some photo books I have made. I can pinpoint the time that Ben started to look really lost. I am not sure what caused this to happen to him and I am not sure if it is going to happen to our littlest member of our family- Henry. I think about it everyday worrying about him and hoping that he doesn't have this. Crying seems to be so easy these days and it is really unfortunate. I cry when something great happens or when it doesn't. Hopefully with the new year there will be less days of crying.
My View on Vaccines.....
I have been pondering this for months now and wondering if this was the cause of autism in my son. Perhaps. I am not sure, but it doesnt matter. I can not get that time back and I need to concentrate on the future and how we are going to help Ben. I can not give Henry vaccines until he is 2, just to be sure. Why take the chance? I guess that is what I wish I would have known... I have been the one to always follow the rules and to trust my doctor. But doctors are people and they do make mistakes, just like everyone else. The thing that worries me is that doctors have a "mixed" view on whether vaccines are to blame or not. Of course it will never be proven to be vaccines, because the CDC recommends them. So what is it with vaccines? Why does my child need to have over 25 vaccines? The chicken pox vaccine? Are they serious? I remember having chicken pox, and well, I am fine. I am not against vaccines, just the rigorous schedule that they are given in. Henry was suppose to have a Hep B vaccine the day he was born, but we opted out of that one. Unfortunately, I didn't know what I know now. I guess I was uneducated and wasn't aware of what my children needed in the way of vaccines. Here is the one thing that I do not understand. Why do people expect me to trust what the CDC says on vaccines? Who trusts the government 100% of the time? What if it were true, could you imagine the lawsuit? A unbiased study will never come to be, so as a parent I must educate myself and choose what is best for my children.
